This post is an honest account of a new mom and breastfeeding.
If you missed Part 1 and Part 2, catch up here and here.
It's been over a month since I posted Part 1 and Part 2 about breastfeeding. I didn't intend to post a Part 3, but the last couple of weeks have been very hard and I realized, I am probably not the only one. So let's support each other.
As I mentioned in Part 2, Aria is gaining weight (or I should say not gaining weight), at an incredibly slow rate. At her 6 month check-up, she weighed 11 lbs, 10 oz. (I was informed that if there was something smaller than 1 percentile, we'd be in that category.) At a doctor appointment 2 weeks ago to check for ear infection because of a lot of extra crying and fussiness, she weighed 11 lbs, 10 oz. Exactly 1 month later, she had not gained a single ounce.
Aria nurses 5 times a day (every 3 hours, and I usually have to make her eat because she's not ready yet), and eats fruits/veggies/cereal 2 times a day. She chows down on the solid food, eating more than a serving at each meal.
When she nurses, it has been very frustrating. My letdown seems to be taking longer than in the previous months, and she is not patient when there is other things she would rather be doing. She eats for 3-4 minutes, pulls away and cries. I switch sides and the whole process repeats. I don't know if my milk supply is not enough for her, I don't know if she's full and telling me no more, I don't know if something else is bothering her... ugh.
I've tried all sorts of things to help the situation. I've spent several days pumping right after she finished eating to help boost supply (I usually got 5-10 DROPS of milk...). We've experimented with positions. We've experimented with quiet locations. I've tried, unsuccessfully, to get ahold of our lactation consultant for the last week. It all sucks...
I'm ready to throw in the towel. No more stressing out about feeding her while I'm not with her (getting a bottle takes 3-5 pumpings). No more worrying about feeding her out and about. No more wondering if she's getting enough.
And I feel guilty about quitting... I don't know what to do.
What did you do?